This past Halloween was fun and all, but I would rather put it behind me. I made some bad decisions (per usual), talked to cute boys, and decided to never drink again the next morning. The thing about leaving home and going away for the first time is that you are naive in thinking that everyone is a good human being in the real world. You don't think that it would happen to you or that people are really bad as the newspapers lead you to believe... but sometimes they are.
It's kinda awful to think that to some guy sees his life is just a game for him and that his actions don't have any impact on others, but I have seen first hand how bad the impact can be. In the end no one was seriously injured or traumatized but I am still left wondering why people think it is okay to drug other people.
I am kinda scared to talk about it and find my self telling it as a joke instead of a serious issue but as of now it is the only way for me to cope with what has happened. I am terrified to tell my parents and I am afraid of any and all repercussions that may come my way. But you have to learn to live with yourself and your decisions so I guess that I am one step closer to getting there.
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